
There's a story going around, wrongly saying
Patrick Swayze is dying of cancer, and it really depresses me. But not for the obvious reasons:

I've known for a long time that Patrick Swayze is a total NewAger - prone to believing all the
nonsense that goes with that designation - but I also know he's married to a woman, Lisa, who
isn't. So, being a feminized NewAger, I'm pretty sure the reason he's tackling (and beating?) cancer with
conventional treatments - the same ones that have been keeping Elizabeth Edwards alive - is because his "strong" wife is insisting on it. It is
she who keeps the
quacks and
wackos away from her "believer" of a husband.

What's depressing me is knowing I'm a
"macho" guy, who was married to a NewAge woman, and seeing how the switch in roles plays out.
Instead of being able to keep the
idiots away from her, I've been roundly condemned for trying to not have her
fed to the lions, which - as we all know by now - I failed at. There were (and still are) just
too many people against me who believed her husband (AKA
"a man") had no place giving counsel (AKA
"controlling") any aspect of
his wife's life - because, marriage or no marriage, she was a
"free spirit" who had right to be
selfish - no matter what that meant to my devoting my life to her.
These people (out of my earshot) were more than happy to
subversively undermine my marriage, and - when it was finally crumbling into ruins - say so openly, because I didn't/couldn't/wouldn't go for their
bullshit.

And now my
ex-wife has broken my heart, destroyed my life, and is with a
NewAge quack who created the opening necessary for the two of them to kill three people - the first being my mother-in-law - which also cuts me in half, whether I liked the racist old horse or not.

Ladies and Gentlemen, excuse me but - I'm a talented artist, an
atheist, and a
rationalist - so my life was NOT supposed to play out
this way. I worked too fucking hard.
I expected more.
I crawled through the fucking broken glass of backward-ass ghetto life, and cultish
racial beliefs, and the
Alice In Wonderland politics of
liberalism. I served my country and, with decades of study, honed my craft. I tried to marry well. I tried to be a good man. And I've been forced to pay a heavy price for all that effort by NewAgers.
I still am being forced to pay for it as they go about
their dirty work.

When I read the
reviews of
Cadillac Records, I feel like the descriptions of Howling Wolf, Muddy Waters, Chuck Berry, and
Etta James are actually
talking about me. I swear like them; I share their talent, volatility, and values. And I see the NewAgers I encounter (online and off) as doing their damnedest to knock that
creative spark out of me. It won't work (I'm not my silly-assed wife) but
they do try.
I've pointed out, countless times,
how bad art is becoming under NewAge. Music especially, because it's not a genre that should be playing by any of NewAge's rules.
Music isn't about record sales or videos, but pure emotion - and we all know how important
"feelings" are to
NewAgers. We're suffering artistically because they're insisting
it's their feelings that matter. They're the ones who are forcing art to be about
sex. They're the ones who are forcing art to be about
celebrity. They're the ones who are forcing art to always be about the
lowest common denominator possible. And we're better than that - I know it - and that
knowledge won't be beaten out of me like it's been beaten out of others.
I'm fucking
better than that.

I was raised a foster child, and like all foster children (especially
the latest most famous one) the idea seems to be that we've been put here merely to be abused by men and women - society, really - without anyone admitting that abuse is actually happening. But I will not be silent about what I've
experienced or
what I see happening out there:
you people are sick, and I don't have time for your
self-reverential pastel-colored "beliefs" about yourselves any longer. You're the cruelest of
liars and fools.
So go on: tell someone else about the importance of being
"humble" before you - a demand you don't
ever make of
black women - because, just like the church-going black women who raised me, I ain't got time for
your bullshit: you're a bunch of
liars and I will stay
my own man. I don't need no
belief system, no
guru, no
cult, or
support group - like my heroes (and true peers), the first black Rock 'N' Roll artists, I need to be a free man - because that's what now sustains
me. That, and my hatred for all you've created and done. Black president or no, you don't fool me.

And with that, I guess I'll end my little rant by saying I think the rest of y'all can go straight to
Hell.