Wednesday, July 21, 2010

I See A Race (With More Crashes Than NASCAR)

To say I like to keep myself on the right side of issues is an understatement, so I feel pretty bad about my congratulations to Andrew Breitbart for his attack on Shirley Sherrod.

I've been saying, for some time now, that race shouldn't even be part of our national dialogue, and then, damn it, I fell into the trap myself.

O.K., I know - I just stuck my toe in it - but it still feels, to me, like it's been lopped off.

So, once again, I'm going to ask: When are we, as a people, going to let this go? How many have to get hurt, unnecessarily, because of this insistence to keep the race meme going?

The NAACP started this latest broohaha? Doesn't matter.

Like the KKK, they've outlived their usefulness and should be consigned to the trash heap of history, and their attacks on the Tea Party - and the reactions of the black audience in the Breitbart video - prove it.

But this doesn't speak well of Andrew Breitbart, either.

The video was edited to make it appear to be something it wasn't.

I can't lay into him too hard because I understand what he's trying to do, and I think it's noble, but still, wrong is wrong and it should be acknowledged.

He should be trying to get Miss Sherrod's job back.

Like I said, I don't feel good about any of this - especially my, admittedly, minor role in it - so I don't feel like writing too much. But there are a few things I do want to say anyway.


While many people may not care to read what I say on this blog, I've got news for you:

I hate listening to everybody else talking about me - and that's what this silly corrosive "dialogue" is, really, whether it's the stupid New Black Panther Party or those fighting against them - it's a discussion about me.

Both the New Black Panther Party, and it's adversaries, think they're looking out for my interest but they're not - they're merely torturing me with their bullshit.

Just as the toxic Mel Gibson did with his you're-going-to-be-raped-by-niggers comments to that unscrupulous woman I don't even think is attractive.

It's time you all realized "I am a man" and I can speak for myself.

If I need your help, I'll ask for it - and you can start by hitting the fucking tip jar, assholes.

Yea, that's what I thought.

See, I know I'm nothing more to you than a Sambo doll, to be batted about to make you feel good - about yourselves.

I've been saying, since this blog started, that I'm a black man who's been through some pretty horrible shit - more horrible than probably anything the rest of you have had to endure - and, with few exceptions, the reaction I've received is to be ridiculed, harassed, or ignored.

Nobody cared I'm a black man openly asking for specific kinds of help - and not the first to ask for this specific kind of help - you'll give me what you think I deserve, whether it's what I need or not.

Well, in the tradition of great rappers everywhere, I say "Fuck all y'all."

If my NewAge ex-wife assisting a NewAge homeopath in killing three other NewAgers, and running away with all of our money, isn't enough to get you off your asses (or your wallets) to come to my aid, then I don't need your kind of "help".

What good is y'all screaming "raaaacist!" at each other doing me?

I've also said - with a lot of evidence to back it up - that I'm the conservative artist that can end a lot of the bullshit we're dealing with through music.

Anybody rushing to make that happen?

Nope. Not even from my fellow conservatives.

What's up? All of a sudden the problems of a black person ain't so pressing, huh?

It's much more fun for y'all to declare me - a black man - a weirdo, ain't it?

Yea, that'll help.

My online friend, Ann Althouse, has told me - several times - that what she perceives as my self-pity ain't Obama "attractive". My answer to her has always been the same;

I'm not trying to be (shallowly) attractive - I'm trying to be (deeply) real.

All of y'all clamoring over me - specifically because of my race - as my fortunes dwindle - and two killers (my ex and the homeopath) are, still, walking freely - is absurd.

It just reinforces how alone this black man is (and, by extension, all black people are) while surrounded by supposedly-well-meaning lawyers, scientists, doctors, therapists, conservatives, liberals, and more.

As someone who has risked his very life, countless times, to rescue people I didn't know - boat people while serving in the Navy, women in distress, etc. - if I were y'all, I'd be ashamed at what selfish bastards so many so-called Americans have become.

I know I'm ashamed.

I asked for your help because I believed in you.

As you know, if you read this blog, I don't believe in shit any longer.

Starting with your concern for me as a black man.

My day started at 8AM with a tap on my window. It was my friend, Pete - a white guy I've known since Jr. High.

He read the post I wrote about quitting my job and, knowing my issues with NewAge, he came over to see if I was alright.

If he had the money, he would give it to me in a heartbeat, saying, "Here, go make your band, and change the world."

Instead, we went to breakfast, a white guy and a black guy, and wondered what's happened to the country we grew up in - specifically, why there are so few of our countrymen like us.

None of you truly care about "the content of a man's character".

If you did, you'd recognize when you've met one, as Pete and I did so many years ago.

Race, to me and Pete, has always been "your problem" - not ours - and it still is.

And unfortunately, from the look of things, that's the way it's going to stay until the day we die.

Shouts out to The Anchoress:

Love ya, babe.

10 comments:

  1. "I've also said - with a lot of evidence to back it up - that I'm the conservative artist that can end a lot of the bullshit we're dealing with through music.

    Anybody rushing to make that happen?

    Nope. Not even from my fellow conservatives.

    What's up? All of a sudden the problems of a black person ain't so pressing, huh?"


    Why should your musical talent be anyone else's "problem"?

    You say you are above identity politics and tribal memes and yet here you are blegging for "fellow conservatives" to help you out as a "black person" - what's up with that?

    If you really solve the problems of racism through your music then quit whining and do it, already.

    If YOU have an unexpressed talent then YOU are the only one who's going to "rush to make that happen" - nobody else.

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  2. "If my NewAge ex-wife assisting a NewAge homeopath in killing three other NewAgers, and running away with all of our money, isn't enough to get you off your asses (or your wallets) to come to my aid, then I don't need your kind of 'help'.

    That includes ignorant comments like yours.

    But thanks for writing: you've solidified my point of view better than you know.

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  3. Just like 50% of all American marriages, yours ended in divorce

    Tell me again, should that make me want to give you my own hard earned money? It's been 5 years (at least according to this blog) time to put on the big boy pants and get over it.

    I see also that you brag about quitting your job because you had to show up at 8:30

    Sounds like you must not have the same familiarity with the workday as most of your readers, newsflash, its normal for the rest of us to work from 8 to 5.

    Get out in the real world and show a little responsibility, that might put things in perspective for you.

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  4. "Just like 50% of all American marriages, yours ended in divorce"

    Tell me, oh brilliant advisor, how many end in the murder of three innocent people?

    And, since you know so much, what kind of effect does the murder of those three people - which I had to to take on to expose, almost alone for two of those five years, which had it's own implications - have on a person?

    And - though I could go on - what good do you think you're doing with this diatribe? Why do you even care to comment if you feel this way?

    I always think people like you, who will cherry-pick the parts you want to harp on (the divorce but not the murders, the job without the NewAge implications for me, for instance) are the scum of the Earth. Actually, that's not true:

    You ARE the scum of the Earth.

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  5. (Shrug)

    If begging for money on blogspot cause you just quit your job, and whining endlessly about how the public should be supporting you financially cause you are a genius, is working for you, then by all means, continue

    The alternative would be taking care of your OWN business, but like many people it seems like you would rather complain, than step up

    That's your choice, just like its my choice not to donate to support this foolishness

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  6. Just as I thought:

    You're a typical anonymous coward - without the balls to address my specific questions of murder - you merely want to dress this the way you've got in your head, leaving out the parts that disrupt your narrative, without ever choosing to deal with reality.

    People like you, specifically, are why this country is so screwed up. You're an attack artist, willing to go after those how say they are already hurt, for no other reason but your own delusional fantasy world.

    Like I said, you're scum.

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  7. And one more thing:

    This has nothing to do with you not wanting to donate - 99.9% of the visitors to this blog don't donate - but they also don't go on the attack because I asked, as most bloggers do, since it's not a paid profession. All you wanted to do is prove, like the scum on JournoList, that you're like the scum on JournoList:

    Haters, as the saying goes.

    Fuck you, whoever you are. You know nothing about anything. Especially about life.

    You're an idiot of the highest order.

    Now get out of my life.

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  8. xcus me but dude dont go rating about anyone u want 2

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  9. Who's the asian girl with the large breasts? Where did you get that picture?

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  10. Kim Kardashian.

    No, I don't know. I just surf the web, and if I see something interesting I throw it in a folder.

    Sorry.

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