Thursday, June 17, 2010
I Never Stood A Chance (In Hell)
Clearly, I have the correct amount of dopamine in my brain, so I can avoid seeing most of the wrong patterns that others fall victim to regularly. One of the patterns they imagine is I think I'm better than they are for this, when the truth is I only call them stupid because they've punished me, my whole life, for being different in this way. For me, it started with a foster brother who - after I innocently admitted I didn't believe in God - knocked the fuck out of me for saying so.
That's always been the way it is: I'd try to have a nice, calm, rational discussion with someone (after they'd corner me about my "beliefs") and, once they see I don't dabble in the irrational, they'd lash out - and usually, though not always, with violence. (Plotting with others against me, betrayal, and abandonment, are other popular fallback positions.) To this day, I am convinced that my ex-wife's (and our friend's) behavior at the end of our marriage were merely payback for me never being capable of going along with their NewAge view of the world.
Now that I've had a chance to digest all of this, I'm sure that my marriage never stood a chance, because I was always outnumbered by people too arrogant to question why, in some areas of their lives (religion/spirituality, etc.) they were willing to give up the knowledge they possessed when, in every other area, they knew better than to let go of their educations.
To illustrate this, I'm putting these videos (one of which I've posted before) of how our military leaders have been thinking (Don't forget: I'm a veteran) so you can see exactly how far outside of the mainstream I am, and how my ex - who once claimed she could walk through walls - was right in the thick of it, before she went on to kill three people. I think these videos also explain why I think the Oprah Winfrey-led society at large is just as responsible for the destruction of my marriage - and the deaths that followed - as my ex-wife was. They also explain the cultish election of a no-talent nobody like Barack Obama. These, to me, are exposé's of popular madness: